UGLY
I can’t stop grieving for myself. Tears haven’t stopped rolling down my cheecks since the moment I looked at myself in the mirror half an hour ago. I couldn’t believe I’m staring at myself. It didn’t look like any bit like me. It must be a mistake! The girl in the mirror, no, it’s not me!!! This is began to look like the worst nightmare I found myself waking up to. Except that nightmare isn’t real but this is!
Words are not enough to relate the state of mind I’m having now. I am so upset and angry at myself. Nothing, nothing in the world can fix this feeling. I really feel UGLY for the first time in my life. I AM U-G-L-Y!!!
I hate the sight of the metals in my mouth. They look nasty and beyond horrible. I can’t believe I did this to myself. Why would I want to wear braces at the very prime age of 23?! I trully must have lost my mind! Now I only have myself to blame… No guy is ever going to look my way. Even if any guy does he probably just wants to take a good look at me and laughs himself to death. My confidence is slipping through my fingers faster than the quicksand and I can only sink deeper to depression. I can’t defy this. Maybe I belong in a dark hole now.
My mouth is swollen; so swollen that if feels like I’ve been kissed by a hundred rowdy men, by force! But I don’t really care about my swollen lips but can someone please, please, please take away the awful metals now and make them disappear forever!!! I can’t bear the sight of myself with these stupid things. Mirror and I are through. There is no way I can look into the mirror like I used to. I adored mirror and couldn’t stop checking my reflections but these are now history. :’(
I can’t continue anymore. My tears are blurring my vision… Can someone please tell me I can pull this through…
April 20th, 2007 at 8:43 pm
hey gal, come on, it’s just braces, I have been thru that, afterall, it’s worth the pain
April 21st, 2007 at 5:55 am
thanks dearie!! I thought I was prepared but I was just too shocked when I saw the metals in my mouth… I am feeling much better today. Getting used to my new imagine. It’s not so bad after all… it’s just that it’s a bit sore when I eat and when I brush my teeth.
I hope all this is like you said, worth the pain!
Thanks for your support though! I am hanging in there!
May 4th, 2007 at 2:24 am
蝴蝶未羽化之前只是毛毛虫 ;p
May 4th, 2007 at 3:11 am
yaya…really worth it…
Coz when u smile nx time, others will somehow wonder why cant they hv such a perfect row of teeth u knw?
Worth it.
May 5th, 2007 at 4:25 am
Thanks KC!
I am going to be a butterfly… in two years’ time! Hell yeah!
May 6th, 2007 at 6:40 am
Hey Adeline,
Hang in there, you’ll get used to the braces. How long have you been wearing them? Sooner or later you won’t even remember they’re there.
And if you think wearing braces at 23 is bad, what about me? I’m wearing braces and I’m 27!
I’m hoping mine will come off next week. I was looking at some of the pictures of my teeth that I took every 3 months since I got my braces on, and I can happily say that the pain and discomfort was totally worth it.
Don’t forget to take pictures, we can then swap and compare
May 6th, 2007 at 6:43 pm
Heeeey you!!!
How come I didn’t know you wear braces?!! Did you have it on when we were in TB??? I barely noticed anything! I thought your teeth were pretty straight!
Anyway, I feel really great having friends pouring out support for me here.
I did take a picture yesterday… hehe… maybe we can swap pictures some time!
By the way, still an IBMer?