Adebelle

Okay, am finally back to old cherry self finally! Hurrah to myself and a pat on my not-very-fair-back(courtesy of Awana Kijal’s sun)

Had been sulking since yesterday right after I found out some not so pleasant news. ‘This life is not fair.’ ‘Life is never fair.’ ‘If this world is fair there won’t be poor people.’ ‘Nothing is fair.’ I’ve heard too many people too many times lament about fairness which they have little or no control over. It’s been a long time since I suffer from this bitter feeling. It led to self pity and almost destroyed the faith and confidence I built over the years for myself.

It gets you wonder if you haven’t been good enough. It makes you wanna ask the same question all the children ask before Christmas, ‘am I good enough to receive a present from the Santa Claus?’ I felt as if Santa Claus has put me in his black list this time… It is that helpless feeling (slowly eating u up) that scares me.

It’s best to ditch the negative feelings now. While I’m sulking, people have already gathered their feet and get ahead. This is of course not a race nor competition. But, (here I go again) why is it so unfair?! Okay, I am not going to dwell about things which have already happened and probably would not changed no matter how many times I shout ‘unfair’.

It would be wise for me to remain poised. Too much complains will land me no where but someone’s black book. I shall prove myself by actions. I shall not let small things like this distract me from my path. I shall win this battle!

At least someone believes in me and thinks that I’ll make it quite far in this pseudo-fair place!

P/S: Thanks Vicky and BA for being you and for being there at terrible time like this.

I am on my feet again

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