Adebelle

"So… are you seeing someone now?" "Do you have a boyfriend?" "Anyone goin after you?" "Are you dating anyone?" "You have a boyfriend, right?" "Have you met anyone interesting at the moment?" "Who is the lucky guy?"

Oh well, these are only a handful of the many questions I get asked. "No, I don’t have a boyfriend and neither am I seeing anyone." That is the typical answer I give whenever the question pops up. And I already knew what comes next. "Are you serious?" *But why???" "You must be joking, you don’t look single at all!" "Hmm, I’m sure there are lots of guys going after you but knowing you, you are just too choosy!" Blah blah blah blah blah…

I am just wondering, is life any better for those who are in a relationship? Is it no way for a singleton like me to be able to enjoy life as much as those who are attached? Is it that hard to believe that I am single and very happy?! Is the life of all singletons out there bitter and miserable? If you have a right mind, the answers for all these questions should be a big NO.

Now, I must be lying if I tell you that I don’t want to be in love and I do not want a boyfriend anytime now. If, at any rate I do say so, I must be ‘insanely’ crazy! Of coz I know how it feels like being in love even though I insist that I have never really been in a relationship, not officially. You see, being in love and being in a relationship are two different things all together. All I can say is that every past ‘relationships’ of mine were very short lived. I wanted to compare them with prematured babies but 99% of prematured babies survived. Well, none of mine survived. These relationships died in the womb… Will not dwell in the past. Besides, it’s too complicated to tell and perhaps to deep to fathom. But the point is, I do miss those feelings… butterfly in the stomach kinda feeling…

Now you might ask, what in the world are you waiting for if you like to be in love? The truth is utterly simple. I am speaking the truth and the truth is I have not met ‘him’ yet. There are of course a lot of guys whom I am attracted to and wouldn’t mind going on a date with BUT 90% of the time, these guys are already attached! They perhaps were just, you know, expanding their ’social network’. At this point, if you are feeling sorry for me, don’t! I trully believe that one day ‘he’ will come to proclaim ‘his’ right, ‘his’ ultimate glory and that will be me. So why rush when the time hasn’t come yet. When it comes, it comes. That’s the way I want it to be.

Now you ask, is there any time you feel all alone and suddenly yearn for a boyfriend? Honestly, I don’t often feel quite that way… not until a while ago… I guess it’s the wedding dinner I’m going to attend tomorrow. Most of my uni mates invited are in a relationship. In fact, one of them just got married early this year! So there will be a lot of couple-talk which I am completely not qualified to take part. I’ll be so out of place and that feeling is scary… If I had a boyfriend, I wouldn’t need to drive to Cyberjaya all by myself. That is my biggest worried, honestly. My sense of direction is the last thing that makes me proud. Maybe this is not all about wanting a boyfriend to attend the wedding dinner. It is the notion of getting lost in Cyberjaya all by myself that unnerves me! I know I’ll be fine tomorrow night

As for now, I am living my life to its fullest. I shall patiently wait for my prince to come in glory to proclaim his rightful throne.

Oh by the way, just a little something for guys to contemplate. If a girl tells you that she enjoys her singlehood and that it’s best for you two to be friends, the chances are SHE IS NOT THAT INTO YOU. That is the politically correct way of rejecting your feelings, just so you have not realised.

So you see, I’m a happy singleton but beneath all this, it is really the matter of meeting someone RIGHT and SINGLE!

All you nice cute SINGLE guys with a career out there, I really don’t mind some nice little message from you Speaking about desperation… Haha, I guess even a happy singleton would have some desperate moment!

But don’t take this seriously. I am seriously not desperate but do not mind meeting nice and interesting blokes.

I never thought I’d do this, you know, advertising for love… but look, didn’t I just do it? *lol*

It must be the wine………

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