This One Is For U, Mum
Am so gonna indulge myself posting as much thoughts as I may right now, right here! Heaven knows when the stupid whatever would decide to die on me; taking away my joy of sharing and poking fun of my own daily lil’ advanture called life.
As I cruise along the journey call life, I realised my stone cold heart is no longer hard and cold. I found compassion for my mother more and more each day. It was hard to open up and share my deepest thoughts with her once. I had been living far too long away from her and perhaps I hadn’t learned the way to love.
My eyes sparkled everytime I spoke to my friends on the phone. Mum was so envious of my friends, to whom I was always patient and polite. I was everyone’s little angel, nice and understanding; except mum’s (maybe to her I mean the world but I didn’t feel like I had show her that I care) Perhaps you won’t buy it if I told you to me she means the world too… it’s just that I hadn’t found a way to tell her. I wasn’t at all comfortable of showing her my affection. Blame it on the separation for more than a decade? No, nothing could replace that 10 years living with my beloved grandparents, even thought it means separating with my mum for almost 10 years.
I have this weird feeling. I think God is answering mum’s prayer. Only God knows how much she prays… I am happy to announce, I’ve found the way!
I picked up my mobile phone and sent mum a Mother’s Day wish 15 min before the clock hit 12am… Odd enough, it was as hard as I thought it’d be. Strange enough I didn’t get goosebumps when I read her reply. It was so natural. It’s just like two friends sending sms-es. Yes, she is my best friend who doesn’t get mad when I yell at her, who smiles when I smile, who cry when I cry (even thought I prefer her to be stronger and not to shed a tear in front of me because I need her to be the rock I can lean on).
At long last, my mum is not just my mother but my best friend!
This one’s for you mum. Happy Mother’s Day and I love you! Sorry for all the pain I’ve put your through… I know I haven’t been the most loving daughter around and am definitely the most demanding one around (but at least you could gloat about me to your friends and colleagues *lol*) Enough ok, my goosebumps are here!!
She better not be reading this! If she by chance is reading it, she better pretends she never ever read it… It’s weird to say I LOVE YOU, ok!
P/S: As a tribute to mum’s greatest love, I’ve decided to post this out… It’s always hard to admit that we are such a horrible daughter to people who know us. But who doesn’t make mistake? The point is, you make a mistake and you make it right. Am I right or am I right? 
