Whatever!
I have a problem, a serious problem. Oh well, it’s a tad negative to be screaming this so early in the morning, I know…
But the again, I hardly slept last night. I don’t quite remember anything that has such profound effect on me in a long time. Well, profound might sound too serious. Anyways…
So my question is, how do you be yourself and not lost touch with professionalism. I’ve been regarding myself as rather professional. At least I dress well to work and at least I don’t scream and shout in the office and of coz I’m always courteous. Alright, alright… It’s after you know me that my professional image gets tarnished, ain’t it? Oh boy… I know… gullible, naive, innocent, any other words to add on? and now am suggested to observe how others conduct themselves. Have I not been conducting myself well enough? Boy, I don’t think so!
Calm down Adeline… so back to the root of the problem. I think I should just sit and zip up most of the time. You see, it’s not that I always say the wrong word and the wrong time. Friendly environment they said. Friendly environment needs friendly people who aren’t behaving like her dog’s just died everytime you see her. Now I’m confused. Oh well… Maybe there’s still a fine thin, close to invisible line that separate friendly and formal. Now you wanna tell me to do things in moderation, huh? Of coz I am very well aware of that!
So there I go again. Just speak my mind without too much of filtering. The end result? Oh well, there you go, gibberish from me to you… and more confusions for myself. I am always contradicting myself, aren’t I? Think before you speak is indeed a wise advice. You know that Adeline, don’t you? But why are you still fuming since last night?
Search me, I don’t have a clue!
I guess, too much blogging is bad for me… I shouldn’t just spill all the beans! Ok, this is where professionalism comes in, girl!
Whatever… I am too lazy to analyze the situation… Urggggh. I will stay very faaar away from trouble for all I care. But then again, someone might just be very helpful and trying to help and give valued opinion??? C’mone Adeline… It isn’t that bad………….. See, I’m constantly challenging words that I just said… Is this some kinda deadly disease?!
Oh well, before I take my bow curtsy… First impression is indeed hardest to change but people, don’t people get a second chance? Only time can tell who’s what and who’s not. We lot, human being…. complex, very complex indeed.
Stop, Challenge, Focus… I can’t help but to repeat this line to myself as early as 8.06 am in the office!
For shouting out loud… I’m outta here!
