Feelings and Thoughts
Oh no, my thoughts are everywhere today. I can’t seem to ’streamline’ all of ‘em. Not sure if that has something to do with the lunch I just had. Baby python I am, very full and don’t feel like moving even the tip of my toes.
I am restless, very restless. There are so many things in my head, for crying out loud! When I said many, it’s MANY!!
I think I do really miss the programming classes back in KLCC even though the whole wide world knows how much I loathe programming. Oh well, I must admit the people I met for the past 2 weeks are simply FAB! I had a blast with these people I merely come to know for 2 weeks and yet 8 new friendships are already blooming! Not sure about others but I do feel like I’ve just found another good friend, Elaine. A girl who almost shares the same thoughts as I do. I’m going to miss her so much! There are other incredible people I’ve met, Mark, Sally, Halif, Yun Heng, Chai Ling and Bea Aik. These people are just awesome!! Have I said that already? 
How very ironic that good time passes in just a blink of an eye. 2 weeks of nothing but programming and having fun ended far too quickly than I’d like it to be. Why can’t good time linger just a little longer? I am sure our path will cross again very soon. Afterall we are still working in the same company, aren’t we?
Now… the part that I dread the most…well, is to pack up all the jolly good holiday mood and get back to work. Two weeks of training tasted just like a good lil’ holiday. Too bad, good time is always short! I’m still trying to adjust the change. Just learned about new schedule for the next 3 months to come. New job scopes = heavier work load = new found stress = depressed Ade. I can almost feel the humongous stress that’s coming my way. Maybe if I try hard enough to be more Zen-like (eg, taking a deep breath everyone 3 seconds), I could handle the stress and emerge as a very self-poised person. Oh wait, how about thriving under pressure?? Sure I could use some pressure, no?
But… the truth is, ‘thrive under pressure’ is meant to be something to ‘dress up’ my resume. I didn’t mean it!! I am so not thriving under pressure! Instead, I turn into a monster under pressure… Who am I trying to deceive?
There are so many things that I could do at this instance and yet I’m typing away here. Very contradicting, I know… Ahh, where has my brain gone to?? Has anyone seen it?? Please return it to me, NOW!
I’m talking gibberish now, aren’t I? Too much is going on in my little brain! I’ve seen so many farewell in just two weeks. It’s depressing, I tell ya. So it will be Hooi Fung’s last day tomorrow. Who am I supposed to turn to when I have some pc related crisis?!?! *sob* *sob* Who is going to help me when I can’t finish loading? Who will offer a pair of helping hand when I’m in need?!?! Sure there are still Agnes and Chris but I am sure I’m going to miss Hooi Fung very much!! On the other side, I’m happy for her! At least she’ll be back to where she belongs and perhaps getting married and live happy ever after SWEET!
Saying goodbye isn’t my strongest capability. In fact, it is a field I’d never excel in. Imagine the pout and tears… Not a pretty sight. Goodbye Hooi Fung and you. You will be leaving tonight, finally, after so many times talking about it and not realising it. Take the chance and make your parents and yourself proud. Everything else will naturally fall into place when you sort yourself out!! Not sure when will be seeing you again. But I know you be a good friend for a long time to come. Four years fly by and sometimes I wonder what if our paths had never crossed. Am I to be the same person I am today? You do realised sometimes you really are a pain in the *** and yet life would never be the same without your presence. So when you’re miles and miles away, remember the most geeky girl you have ever met in your entire life and she will be thinking about a friend she never thought she would make thousand miles away. When I see you again, I’d want to see you in your smartest business suit and professional looking specs :) Goodbye you, my past. Good luck, my friend, it’s time to spread your wings.
