Blimey!!!
Blimey! Blimey! Oh, BLIMEY!!! Chinese New Year probably hasn’t gone for more than a day and here I am with an awful confession to make. My conscience is eating me out like waves eating away the beach. Awful is not even close to describe how I feel. Oh conscience, conscience, would you stop gnawing at me??
I know to put a stop to the constant inner voice that’s been ringing all day, I’ll have to relate the incident here. Perhaps that’s the way of expressing my deepest apology and regrets for what has happened.
*Taking a deep breath*
Alright, here we go, a confession of a hopelessly hopeless drama queen…
You might have already guessed it… What else, right? What else is she capable of other than meeting yet another car accident?? Shamelessly yes, it’s another car I’ve accidentally hit when doing a reverse in the open-air parking space this morning. I’m not being defensive but the parking space is a little too narrow for maneuvering. Anyway, I really didn’t mean to, I swear…
In the state of real panic, I glaced around and found no one witnessing that embarrassing moment. The very helpful indian dude who works in the car park was no where to be seen. Very quickly, it’s almost like a reflect reaction, I got down to check the damage. It wasn’t at all a hard bang, it was probably a really ’soft touch’..ok, soft ‘friction’ maybe. Alright, alright, maybe it wasn’t that soft at all! The abrasion, I’m sorry to say, left quite a few ’scars’ on the poor car and my black stallion. Uh-oh, big trouble… My stomach was churning, twisting into many many little knots.
The little devil sitting on my left shoulder took control of my mind. Before I realised, I already hopped in my car and off I went, leaving the poor car behind. Oh no, it’s a typical hit and run case!! What did you just do, Adeline Issabelle Chu?! Ermm, not very intelligently, I’d say, I chosed a spot which was perhaps 3 cars away to re-park. I have no idea what was I thinking, honestly! Aren’t I comparable to a dumb theif who left trails for policemen to locate… Not very smart, not at all…
I was too scared to linger around in the car park too long. I gathered my bags and fled myself. "Tsk tsk tsk", I can hear it! Even my tongue despises my lousy act. I’m sorry, I really do! I didn’t mean to run away just like that. I swear I wanted to walk back to the car and left a post-it or something. I really wanted to… It’s just that…it’s just that my legs wouldn’t obey the command of my brain. That’s not an excuse, I’m being really serious. I found myself kept walking without quite turning my head. I paced myself up a bit, hoping the early morning breeze would blow away the awful guilt inside of me, but it wouldn’t.
I couldn’t contain it anymore and so I told it to a friend breftly I arrived the office. He suggested to move my car out and far far away from the parking space, escape the crime scene, so to say. He told me he would probably do the same thing if he met the same incident. Strangely, that didn’t make me feel any better. I still can’t believe I’m behaving like a SHE COW… is this karma for calling her that far too much?? Maybe the owner is cursing me right now… yea, my stomach is kinda aching now. But she has every right to do so. I really can’t and don’t blame her for that… I’m sorry, whoever you are. I will pray for her tonight. She ought to get more blessing from today onwards. I hope with that, I could at least make it up to her.
I am a coward, a coward that runs away from her own mistake.
End of confession…
Tomorrow’s another day and yea, that’s pretty much a little update from a real life drama queen. Didn’t I say life is a stage?
p/s: I wonder if I should park at the same car park at all starting tomorrow. The driver of that misfortuned car might have seen me!! She might recognise my car!! Oh no! Now I remember seeing her turning back to check on her car before she walked out from the car park… God bless me…
