Adebelle

It’s 11.30 pm Tuesday night. Skipped one of the night routines and headed straight to bedroom. A pang of emptiness enveloped whole being… Turned on the air conditional and hid under my safe sanctuary. Wishing to find some familiar consolation there. Tossing and turning god knows how many times…saying prayers over and over again.. hope it’d get me to sleep, if not the next second, be it the next minute.

As the night drew darker the temptation grew stronger.. slowly eating up my control… bit by bit.. inch by inch…. On the verge of lossing it all… With all the mental strength, summoned the will power that’s left struggling and fighting with the the dark temptation.. would not sucuumb to it, I would not!!

Tired and exhausted, allowing myself to give up and give in despite the earlier efforts …. was sinking.. deeper and deeper to the point of no return…

On the other end… ring ring.. ring ring… ‘Please leave your name and your message…’

Did it again.. will never learnt the lesson…

Time flies by a lil’ faster than usual… Before I could pause for a breather it’s Wednesday. Third day of nothingness.. I mean, not doing anything..

Once again, it feels just like a year ago.. sitting around and waiting for employment… Here we are again, it’s just me, my faithful laptop (MSN, YM, Friendster), fluffy huggies, bowl of fav chocolate ice cream, a bag of potato chips, dutiful TV (Sports Channel, MTV, Channel V….) and of coz DA COUCH!!

Ideally, I should be enjoying every moment of this.. somehow… I am BORED… Human beings are the strangest animals (or is it just me?) I longed for a break like this and when I have it, I wanna end it. (sounds like gloating, huh? hehe) Perhaps a small vacantion will help… hmm… think of the beach, the sandy beach.. and sunset…. awwww…..

Anyways, I can smell the weekend’s air…. one more week to go.. and then is work work work and more work… God bless my soul

The lastest news I received yesterday is that the sick cow has been fired! I am not about to pop open a champagne and celebrate. I mean, is this it?? Just get fired and he’s out at large again?!! Oh well, I am not a law student or anything but he deserves more than just being sacked!!

Frankly speaking, I won’t count too much on the ‘authorities’…

Sigh, I can only pray that this social rat will face his own nemesis one day.

Again, ladies out there, be extra watchful and ‘toilet-smart’ when you visit the lav!

Alright, here I am again.. finishing off the half told story happened just last Friday. Yes, my last day as the Big Blue.

Didn’t expect my last day to be quite like this. Ended up in the police stations till 10.30 pm! What a day to remember, huh?

Alright alright, I shall just cut to the chase. You must be thinking what the heck was I doing in the police stations, yes, 2 different police stations, eh? I was there to lodge a police report. I met a Peeping Tom in the ladies!!! Can’t help but to shiver when think about all the possible consequences that might actually take place right then…

This bas**** claimed that he entered the ladies without checking the sign hanging right on top of the door!! The best part is yet to come. Caught him standing on top of the toilet bowl in the cubicle, which is directly next to the one I used and peeking over the divider and directly into the cubicle I just came out. I caught him red handed, by his own reflection in the mirror!! Know what’s the explaination he gave? He claimed that he was just checking the user in the cubicle just to be sure it is a male toilet! How foolish!! Before this, he offered another dumb explaination. He said that he wasn’t peeking and he was just peeing!! Hello, any guys out there pee with zipped pants and with the toilet lid CLOSED?! Needless to mention about his position!! On top of the toilet bowl!!

If he’s innocent, why ran away like a dirty and filthy rat when I screamed?! I will not rest the case just that. He is the trash in our society that is needed to be cleaned up! He thought he could pull it off by using his lame excuse.

How sick can one get and just how stupid he can be?!

Now I sure hope he’s saving his own @$$ in the police station!

To the ladies, do check around next time you enter the ladies.. perhaps, we should keep our eyes on the toilet divider at all time!

Due to the responses I’ve been receiving, I guess it is only appropriate to do a clarification on the previous blog posted last week, which entitled ‘Does Age Really Matter?

Friends been asking if I’ve just gotten attached, attached with the guy mentioned in the blog!! Of coz not! He is merely just a good friend of mine whom just got himself a girlfriend.. ahem.. older than he is… you see, I still find it amusing because he was preaching about big NO NO’s seeing older girls… Hence, the blog…

Oh well, I’m still with the same old status. Single and available… any takers? hahaha

Au revoir Cyberjaya…headed straight to plaza, where it all started…

Not sure how everything would turn out. After all, this is where I started, where many friendships are formed…

It was a hot late afternoon when I reached the open-air parking space near Plaza. Carrying my T41 one last time as walking on the uneven stony path towards Plaza, in heels!

Greeted by Jeff and Chat at G floor, headed to Ali Baba with Jeff to do some catch-ups. Time passed by without our knowledge. It was fast approaching 5 pm and had an appointment with Jackie Chan from HR.

At 22nd floor…. Let’s just say many things had happened and that I gained good piece of advice from Farah and promised her will always stay the same, stay as the bubbly self she has come to love Farah is one of the exceptional mentors I’ve met. She’s the one you can talk to if you have doubts about anything. Bless her! She claimed that we are all her babies. That’s so sweet of her. Departing time was close… she gave me a big hug and kissed me on my head… savouring the last moment of closeness with her, promised that will keep her posted and come back to visit lovely HR people once a while… and stay true to myself

Poor Jackie, waiting for me to start the exit interview patiently as Farah and I were chatting happily (forgotten about the time) at one corner… it took less than 15 minutes to finish up the interview… Jackie took back my ID card and Amex and twisted the latter into two!! I could only watch on….. ouch!

Heading to 10M this time… I have to return my baby to the cloning centre. Sunny and Edmund must have been waiting… Sunny answered the door with the same old smile he always has on his face. Put down my thinkpad and bag, asked for direction to the ladies. Didn’t know this was all about to change the course of the day…..

I shall take a break now… the incident am about to tell is still pretty disturbing…

To be continued….

2nd September 2005, Friday. This day had finally arrived. It felt all so right to get up to work as usual. Hadn’t really felt anything different, not until the clock quickly ticking away.. Waves of emotions washing over me right after lunch time, triggering tears in the eyes as typing out goodbye notes to people whom stay so close to my heart. It was harder than emptying the work station. In fact, couldn’t help but to feel sense of gladness as the desk was being cleared up. It signified first sign of freedom and most importantly, first step towards realising the dreams.

As sitting on that blue chair one last time, typing out the one last email with the smart looking black laptop, tones and tones of memories flashing back like a series of old movie films… First day @ work, Futsal, Eastin Hotel, Crab Dinner, BBQ @ Yoke Ling, Graduation, Dragon Bar, Career Day, MidYear KickOff, Appreciation Night… and so many others to even start listing down… Looking back, nothing is constant but the people whom embraced all these experienced with me are. They are the lovely angels sent from above sharing each valuable moments, enduring challenges together, encouraging and helping each other though difficult times. These are the people I never thought I’d meet!!

It’s really time to say goodbye.. the moment I’d been dreading to face.Couldn’t help no more. Letting the tears rolling down my cheeks as the tears welled up in the eyes of some colleagues… I know my presence was strongly felt there… I know I have made an impact in these people’s lives.

So long my colleagues in RCC, Cyberjaya.